“The only person who can pull me down is myself, and I’m not going to let myself pull me down anymore.” – C. Joybell C.
How did you spend your time in quarantine? Learning new skills? Cleaning a closet? Recovering from trauma?
I … spent my time getting myself on the path of ‘optimization’ of myself.
I cleaned up my diet, my mindset, my inbox, my collection of people in my circle. I hired coaches and trainers and did.the.seriously.hard work. I curated my life. I mapped out the new plan for where I want to go and how I intend to get there.
I learned where my obstacles, blocks and negative voices come from. And I learned how to remove them.
I read, listened to podcasts, lamented not learning more. As I look back, I see exactly how powerful this Sacred Pause has been for me. I have been challenged, and I met the challenges. What you will see from me for the next 1,000 days is going to look a lot different than what you saw (or, didn’t see, to be accurate) from me over the past 1,000 days.
I am no longer afraid to look in the mirror.
Or step into the fray.
I abhor conflict, but realize that one cannot grow without stress. I learned that avoidance is a trauma response.
I am not a victim.
I thought I conquered that demon a few years ago. Really I just climbed higher on the spiral and peeled back some layers.
This past six months have been a battle that has laid me open.
And I emerge victorious.
During this pause, I also received the gift of connecting with my teen. As my sixteen year old and I were conversing one afternoon about the state of things, projects, things we planned to do, he tells me that I used to be the kind of person that just got shit done. Didn’t matter what was needed. It didn’t matter if it was for work, my business, friends – whatever. If it needed done, I did it. Boom.
He says it like I used to be magical. Had superpowers or something. Maybe I did. I was a single mom. Single moms definitely have something magical about them.
These days, GSD isn’t happening so much. Somehow I’ve become this person who needs lists and structure and lists about my structure and I’m sure if I look, I have lists about my lists. What’s missing is the SYSTEM I used to have. It wasn’t perfect, for sure, but it was there.
Later that day as I listened to a podcast, I heard the words “one thousand days.” These words started going through my brain on repeat. The loop lasted three days, on repeat “one thousand days, one thousand days, one thousand days” It has become my new mantra.
One thousand days is a little less than three years. That’s not a long time. Where were you one thousand days days ago? As I write this, it is the 14th of September 2020. One thousand days ago was the 19th of December in the year 2017.
In December of 2017, I had a pretty solid daily ritual going. I can see from the photos from that time frame. I was hosting and co-hosting yoga workshops, some of which would change the lives of a few people and would connect me to others who would become pivotal in my life and development. My businesses (plural) were growing and thriving. I had a corporate job that was fairly boring but paid well. I was eating healthy. I was moving regularly. I was meditating daily.
I was invested in transforming lives. My own and others. I was working. In all senses of the word.
The day of this conversation with my teenager? I had been staring blankly at the canvas of the program I have been supposed to be developing. I was no longer teaching yoga, partly because of the pandemic and partly because it was no longer fulfilling. I had left that corporate job for reasons I won’t discuss here. I couldn’t remember the last time I meditated, wrote in my journal or followed any of the practices that used to be non-negotiable for me. No wonder I was out of sorts and lagging at, well … everything.
His words, timed perfectly with this podcast and new mantra, lit a fire that I haven’t had in quite some time. I have missed it. I spent a month fanning the flame, setting the structure, purging limitations and collecting tools to help me thrive. And now I’m stepping out onto the field ready for the battle that is the next one thousand days.
The number one thousand is powerful. According to various websites devoted to the study of numbers, the number one thousand has the following meanings:
- is a communication from the Divine that it’s time to begin a fresh sequence of events with passion and confidence
- assures you that you have blessings and support of the divine
- vibrates with the numbers 1, 0, 00, and 000
- having three zeros in the number 1,000 magnifies the number 1 three times
- number 1 indicates that it is time for new developments, evolution, and growth
- number 1 relates to the strength of mind, natural feelings, determination and drive to complete the new projects started
- moreover, number 1 also signifies that you are the creator of your own destiny based on your ideas and actions and the ability to convert the ideas into achievements
Basically, the number one thousand is a powerful number for undertaking new beginnings designed to move mountains.
With that, we come to today. Day one of the next one thousand days for me. Will it be for you too?
This won’t be a topic I post about regularly, I simply wanted to put this out there to inspire others to take their own divine action. You will see the difference for yourself. I will be sharing images and content on my Instagram and possibly my Facebook pages, if you’re interested in hearing more, following along, or starting your own journey.
One thousand days from now is June 11, 2023. Where do you intend to be on that day? I know where I will be.